Fear, the force that constantly dictates our decisions. This power magnifies insecurity, and causes us to compare ourselves to others. There is also something else that panic leads to, something that one person triumphs at. I allowed terror to run my life, for years I would hide myself, blending in until I no longer knew who I was, letting every insecurity carve its bloody handprint into my brain until I believed every word.
We often wish for what we don't have, assuming that if we were prettier, thinner, more wealthy, or in a relationship, that then we would feel satisfied. Fear entangles our brain in a web of lies, saying that we are not enough, and if we can just achieve something else then we will be happy. This belief is deceitful, dangerous, and addicting.
I constantly battle with the false notion that because of my visual impairment, I have to make up for the difference, that I am less then others because I cannot see as they do. I tell myself that I am only worth it that day if I accomplish everything I need to, thus putting my identity in success, instead of Christ.
This is where fear is dangerous, when we base our value off of appearance, success, and opinions from others, we get a false sense of identity. Having goals and dreams is a good thing, but if we are only following them to feel satisfaction, then we are robbing ourselves of true happiness.
Christ told the Disciples to lay down their lives and follow him, he proclaims the same for us today. We can lay down our lives by centering our focus around him, instead of letting fear possess our lives. We can let the Lord lead us to the light.
With his truth, he will help us see that value is not dependent upon what Man deems as worthy, but instead it is measured by sacrifice. Give up the desires of the natural man, and serve others. Identity is not built upon thinking of oneself, identity is formed when a person can loose themself in the Service of God.
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